Over Thanksgiving break, I stayed at my mom’s house. HUGE mistake. I didn’t think my stepmom would invade my personal space, and read my personal book that I had kept to write in if I needed. I have had a hard time trusting her, due to the abuse my real mom put me threw, I don’t feel trust anymore. I honestly am in this state where I’m backed into a corner and don’t care about anything. I truly am broken. I don’t care what happens to me, my life, my health, my family, anything. I made amends with people I thought I’d never forgive, just to see how this would affect me, and I don’t feel anything. My best friend told me he tried to strangle himself, and all I said was “what about your boyfriend?” I’m the one that everyone goes to for problems, I have great advice, but I’m so broken, I can’t even help the people that matter to me. I had so much going for me, now I’m stuck inside a corner wish I had killed myself that night. I know I would have regretted it, but now, I could care less. I have nothing to live for anymore. I’m just a silly girl with her head in the clouds. I’m not fit for the hand I was dealt, and this is a game of poker with the wrong men. I’m done with it all. I go to college in 5 years, I’m gonna go, and never return. I’m gonna lose all contact with everyone, and never look back. The only thing I might take with me is my girlfriend, but that’s it.
I’M DONE!