As I have said many a time in the discords and twitch streams I am a HUGE fan of the MMO Guild wars 2. It’s my safe haven, a stress relief and an inspiration for me.
Over the past week I have lost that security. I was told by 5 of my friend that my ex quit the game.
He found me in an event and started yelling at me by a dev and that was well as some other issues got his account banned for some time.
Last week I saw him in game, I thought nothing of it. He’s back whatever, it never mattered to me. Our relationship was over 3 years done and I had no leftover regrets or doubt. He was manipulative, greedy and selfish. He wanted me for sex or money, so much so I had to start selling myself to meet his needs. He still never showed me the love a person should deserve. But after doing some events on different maps and going to areas that are locked by level or items. He was there. Always. Right. There. He sent me a whisper, I panicked. I switched characters, Hoped he wouldn’t find me. I was wrong. He was still right there, Right behind me. I was going crazy. So I just logged off and didn’t play for a few days, just logged on to get some daily items maybe on for 10 minutes max.
On Sunday I logged on to play, had that want to. After an hour he wasn’t there, so I played for the rest of the day, just forgetting anything happened. He was just trying to scared me. I let him but whatever. I still can play now.
Then Monday happened. He Messaged me, telling me how much me still loved me and regretting acting the way he did. He sounded like he was actually regretting things, a sincere apology. Was weird but whatever. Didn’t want to handle it, so I ignored it. I really didn’t care.
Then he sent me another message asking if I had read the first one.
Then another one telling me good job on an event I had done.
Another, a congrats for a good drop.
ANother one saying sorry, he’d leave me be.
I was reaching my limit. So I DMed the Dev that helped me the first time saying that he was back. I was getting weirded out. Understandably. He was trying to connect and I didn’t want to talk to him anymore.
An hour after he sends me 5 messages, talking about HIS life, how HE had it hard. He was trying to pull a pity card on me. It worked the first time so he thought it may again. If he was really sorry and meant any of the things he said. How he felt bad, how he regretted it, how I was never wrong, how I wasn’t the bad one. Why did he then just make it about him. Try to make me feel bad for leaving him despite the issues. He found out that I was in therapy. He doesn’t follow me anywhere that I know of so now I’m scared he’s gonna start following me everywhere. He continues to message me over the next three hours. I just send him a message trying to stop him ask him to stop. over one night he sends me endless messages.
My therapist tells me to stop him and close it off, I also get a response from the dev. They said tell him to stop and he doesn’t them we can do what we can. I set up a codeword with the Dev if she need to jump in to help me.
Today, Tuesday, I wake up and get on. 7 messages. 6 of them from him. Trying to talk to me, trying to get me back. Knowing my fiancee’s name, the name of the cat I got after I left him. I don’t know how he knows any of this. Over 5 more hours he’s messaging me with more bs. So finally I cave in, despite not wanting to talk to him I listen to the advice given to me. I message him saying that He needs to leave me alone, forget me, live his life without bothering me. To go away and is his life is so bad try to fix it. I felt sick withe very word I sent to him.
He responded and told me that he was too broken to fix. I am done.
He just messages me endlessly. I DMed the dev again telling me that I’ve reached a limit.
I can’t handle him messaging me anymore.
I felt safe in this game, and that’s been broken. I Stream this game but I’m scared to cause he’ll find out. I’m a guild leader, people depend on me but I’m so scared to even get on.
I’m hoping something gets done. I don’t want to be scared of a place I called safe.