Hello there!
So, I will start with the fact that I am on a skiing trip with my parents and brother this week, which sucks. I don’t like the new year and everything. Why? Well, everyone is happy and partying and I am stuck with my family and I don’t like spending time with them. We fight all the time, especially me and my mom.
Everyone is recapping their year on social media… what was my year? I lost someone who was like my brother, a friend who believed the rumors instead of me, my crush rejected me, one of my really good friends almost raped me, my guy bestfriend knows all of this is happening and he said that he tried to help me he will not force me anymore, I started cutting again, watched 2 seasons of Riverdale in one day, my mother called me a prostitute and almost kicked me out of the house.
I just wish that Honza (my bff) would care, talk to me more, like the old times. I thought that 2018 would be different but it was worse. I am afraid that 2019 will be the same, so that’s why I want to end it.
My favorite band, Asking Alexandria, launched the “text us” thing and I was happy at first, but it is not for Europe. I hate living in Czech republic sometimes. Czech people are so judgemental.
(Almost every sentence is starting with I which is making me feel selfish)
But I am ‘just a moody teenager’ , ‘attention seeking 14year old’ , 'selfish, ugly cunt.
Thank you for reading this, I am considering ending it tonight. “New year, dead me”… yeah… I still have 3 hours and 48 minutes to think about it.
- TEREZKA