I was adopted at birth and always knew who my birth parents were, but never had any contact. I recently did a DNA test and was messaged by my biological father, and I have no idea what to do with it all. I feel for both him and myself through the situation. He wasn’t sure I was his during the time, thinks I do not think well Of him, and feels bad for not knowing me until now… I don’t hold anything against him for it all, but some of the stuff has just began to resonate with me. Maybe it’s emotions I have kept hidden for the last two decades, but it’s coming out now. I have had no contact for 22 years, and that weight is just now on me.
I’m not sure how to go about responding to the message, or at least not as this current time. I find myself not sleeping, depression increasing, drinking to cope with emotions increasing, and overall crazy emotions. I don’t know what to feel or how to feel with everything. I don’t know what to do…