I recently posted about my struggles with a certain person and of course I didn’t take the amazing advice that was given to me and im back to the beginning. I am in love with a incredible, wonderful man, but he gives me the heartache of a life time. a couple weeks ago he decided to send me a message saying he wanted me to stop trying to be his girlfriend and that he couldnt handle it. this message was sent at 3am over text. I told him it was very disrespectful to me that he would end things this way. We talked the next morning and were fine with being friends. He did tell me though if I responded badly he would have deleted me from everything.
Fast forward 2 weeks later. He asked me if he could come in for a haircut. Which I said was fine, me not thinking anything of it because at this moment I was fine keeping him in my life as friends. because I didn’t want to lose him. After the haircut, he hugged me and left. the next day he sent me a message later that night telling me about this amazing movie he was watching and after a few back and forth texts he sent me a message saying “I just want to be happy” He asked right after if I wanted to chat and playing games with him. we ended up talking to 4am, he also invited me over to his house later that week and of course I said yes.
After work I go to his house and we ended up just sitting on the couch eating pizza and watching childhood shows. I of course hinted that we cuddle and I would get “maybe” so I didn’t push it any further. Then he leaned over and said 5 minutes and kissed me and we cuddled for way longer than 5 minutes.
Im so terrified yet so in love with this man. I just want to tell him how I truly feel, I want to argue with him. I need it to get through his thick capricious skull.
Help me run or help me fight.