I think I’m finally breaking. I really can’t go on anymore. I’ve tried and tried and I can’t get better. I’m hurting so much I just have no desire to live anymore. There’s no point in trying because everyone leaves me anyways. I really don’t think anyone cares for me and will always be here for me. I hate myself so much, I do all of this to myself. Everything is my fault, I’m responsible for everything that goes wrong. I just want to hurt myself until I can’t feel a thing anymore. I try to be so strong for those around me and I just can’t do it anymore I really don’t think I’m going to make it through this year.
I’m sorry that you’re hurting like this, but I know for a fact that you have people that care about you right here in this community. You see the way Dan and Casey’s faces light up when they see you in stream? That’s love, right there. You’re always so much fun and light up the chat - I know we don’t talk much directly but you always put a smile on my face when I see you there.
Have you tried ReWrite? I’m thinking about picking it back up due to relapsing heavily in my own self harm - when I did it the first time it helped me a lot… If it’s something you’re interested in, maybe we could do it together? You can keep fighting - I know it seems impossible but you’re doing all the right things by posting here and reaching out. If you’d like to look into picking up ReWrite together, please don’t hesitate to throw me a message - I’d love to help where I can.
Hold Fast
Kayla
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