Yesterday while watching American Idol, a contestant named Ace performed. His style of music wasn’t to my taste but he was young and braver than I would have been. Especially since he is Trans. The judges didn’t “put him through” and a lot of people on Social Media weren’t happy about it. During his closing interview, he said something that struck me hard,
“I guess I wasn’t good enough? I thought I was.”
The fact that he was 15 and was still going through a lot of the emotions that come from transitioning was a braver thing than most can admit. However, his voice-that is his emotional voice- didn’t come on strongly. For me, he needed a bit more growing to do.
I felt sad for Ace. But I learned something from him too. I learned that when you put your heart into something and it doesn’t come to fruition it doesn’t mean you should give up. “When you pour your whole hear singing a song you believe in, and tomorrow they’ll forget you ever sang. Sing it anyway.”
Today’s 1,000 words reminded me to not give in to self-doubt. Not to let the wilderness of life overtake me and to listen to where God is taking me, not the devils in m head.