hi! it’s been a minute :]
there’s a few things i have on my mind.
I’m currently 7 months and 12 days clean. I’ve obviously struggled a lot getting here, but i was very content i could do it. and i still am, i want to reach a year, but lately i’ve not been feeling too well. mostly i’ve just been stressing about getting older; my 17th birthday is less than two weeks and my cat is getting older, as well. it probably sounds very silly, but the thought of her not being with me one day makes me cry. she’s the light of my life and losing her is my worst nightmare.
coming back to the original topic though, I’m struggling hard today. i’m itching to relapse. i hope i’ll be able to hang on and not do something i will regret.