Well, I honestly don’t know how to start this whole post thing. I honestly don’t know why I am posting this, but here I am. In the past few years, I realized that I am a bisexual woman. For awhile, I thought I was a lesbian because I would often find myself more often being attracted to women over men. Lately, I have noticed that I am very attracted to someone who most likely doesn’t have the same feeling as I do about her. I know that it would never happen. There is so much that would be against us having things work out, so I don’t see the point of telling her since I feel like that would only push her away. I don’t want to lose that friendship because it is really precious to me. So…I just enjoy it for what it is and keep my feelings to myself. I feel like it is one of my lots in life, to be alone at the end of the day. (I play the what-if game more than any other person I know.)
I know that I need to take this time to work on myself & my new career that has finally lined up for me. I ran into my former boss a few days ago and all of that stress and anxiety came rushing back. She made a snarky remark that made me so thankful that I left that job and now in a better one. I am feeling like I finally found my place in the world. I finally have some peace in my life and hopefully other things will fall into place. It will help my mom with her funds because she has helped me a lot this past year due to work situations and unreliable paychecks. I feel like a bad daughter, but I am trying my best.
I guess that’s it.