Hello everyone. I’m really angry right now. And a little sad as well. So, for some context, my dad struggled with a heroin addiction for most of my childhood. I am now 20 years old and my parents divorced when I was 8 due to my father’s addiction.
So, because of the addiction, my dad wasn’t always around and that is always something that I’ve struggled with.
But now, my mom is starting to date again and because of it, she isn’t spending more time with me. And I wish I could say that as a 20 year old college student, I am an independent woman who doesn’t care what her parents do, but my inner child is screaming. This relationship is really triggering my abandonment wounds from my childhood.
And what’s even more confusing is that my dad is starting to date again and even though we don’t talk much, I’m angry that he is happy and moving on. And he also is spending more time with his girlfriend and so we went from talking every once in a while to never talking. Like I never wanted to talk to him, but now that I can’t, I’m like freaking out.
Since both of my parents are now dating other people, I feel like I’m losing my parents all over again and I just can’t help but feel scared, lonely, angry, and sad. It’s like I’m 8 years old again right back when my parents told me about the divorce.
I feel emotionally stuck and I don’t know what to do