For the first time in my life I’m struggling with horrible bouts of addiction. To two things.
First off I’m addicted to eating. I don’t think I’m terribly overweight but I’m not skeleton-thin like I was when I was a kid either. Someone died in 2019 and I started eating lots of things. I wanted to start this new year off with a diet for both me and my mum, but a month into it she’ll cave and purchase horrible foods and I’ll end up eating them no matter how much I don’t want to.
Secondly I’m addicted to my sleeping medication. This is a new development but it’s causing me lots of stress along with the food thing. I can’t sleep at night so my mum suggested I take sleep meds. I took them and now I can’t stop. I rely on them to fall asleep at night. If I don’t take them one night then I’ll wait until both my parents are asleep and then I’ll sneak downstairs and take them (I admitted this to my mum and she’s hidden them away). The withdrawal symptoms are killing me and I still can’t sleep. I took some last night and now I’m drowsy and dizzy but my head isn’t killing me anymore. I don’ know what to do, my life is going into a downward spiral.