Yea, most of the medications I took I remember them working too well on me and after a few months didn’t work unless I increased them, and when they increased I became less and less myself with more and more negative side effects. It was like giving up my humanity to become a “perfect person”, I honestly wasn’t who I used to be anymore, I lost alot of my emotions, and became very slow functioning, and ofc all of this in exchange for focusing and making straight A’s, when I was only 6 years old, something I didn’t actually want. I just wanted my mom to love me. Tbh I would never reccomend it to a child for the reasons of what happened to me, the changes were… Very permanant, and only after all these years I’ve gained my emotions back. These days when I take ADHD medications they don’t do anything to me, and if I were to increase the dosage it would only cause more liver damage to me.
As for any medications, yea, it sucks when they have no affect on you when you want it to, but that’s why we need to be able to work on ourselves personally. I only take medications if I know for sure I need it, otherwise I’m always careful with the dosages.
I’ve found that taking ADHD medications also causes a reliant because when you aren’t on it you don’t know how to control yourself, this is why I think it’s more important to teach yourself than just take a bunch of medications, ecspecially as a child. Tbh I’m pretty against ADHD medications unless you’re an adult and know you need it. If I could have changed anything about my life as a child, it would be to not have been put on ADHD medications. There’s alot of my childhood that has become very foggy and unemotional. It’s hard to remember the good times because of that, which I think is what fed my depression and personality disorder. It pretty much took away alot of my childhood, because being forced to take ADHD meds by my mother made me think I had to do it to be a good kid and be loved, when, my mother could have instead just used her psychology degree to understand me and give me therapy instead of beating the shit out of me. I know it’s not my place to say, but, when it was me back then, I know all I wanted from my mom was for her to understand and help me, maybe get me a therapist instead of drugging me for half of my childhood. Sorry it got a bit deep but, ADHD meds are very serious and can have a negative affect if not used properly and without the proper knowledge, I know doctors give it out like it’s nothing over here so it’s important for one to do their own caretaking with it.
I actually don’t ever remember my appetite being low before medications, I had a pretty high appetite and energy level before then, I was also a very happy kid, aside from the occasional anxiety.
Overall my experience is just one of many, ofc many others could have a completley different story, the main thing is just the matter of knowing what you’re doing, and not always trusting a doctor so easily. As I said before, my mother has a psychology degree and she understands nothing about it, and so did all of my previous psychiatrists who just threw the drugs at me and didn’t even bother to look at my face when they did. Plus there also the huge issue of doctors diagnosing children without even giving them a proper evaluation. The only reason they knew I had it is because of how severe it was with me. I would be so impulsive to a point where I would rely on pure instinct and wouldn’t remember anything I had done, but I’d feel extremely bad because I was hated by my mom for it.
This is just one of the few issues in trusting someone who’s supposed to help you. Don’t be afraid to do your own research.
There’s a ton about the psychology of ADHD in the mind that is very important to understand, so I’m glad you’re reading about it. An ADHD coach/counseler sounds lik an awesome idea! but I’ve never had one so I actually don’t know if there is one.
I’m hoping where you are they do indeed do behavioural therapy with it, because that will prevent a huge lot of the things that has happened to past clients like me and alot of people where I live.
Hopefully you’ll find the perfect medication for youself ^~^
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I definitely think you should talk to your doctor about it if you can. Maybe there is another method you could try that you haven’t yet that they would know about. I wish you all the luck in finding a healthy source for the dopamine you crave 
