I really hate having DID. When I first found out I was curious because I was confused but then it hit me and I realized that all of it was because of everything that happened when I was a child. Everything is always fuzzy, I have no idea who I am all the time, I keep finding myself in places without knowing how I got there. It’s just constant flashbacks and panic attacks and dissociation and I hate it so much. If I could get rid of it, and just be a singlet again, I would. Don’t get me wrong I love my headmates and I know they’re there for a reason but I hate this so much.
On the bright side, I’m getting a therapist who might be able to help us. Our previous therapist is retiring, and she specifically recommended someone who’s trained in PTSD and trauma so that we can actually get the help that we need, considering our old therapist wasn’t trained in trauma at all. So hopefully things will start getting a bit better.