This… well is going to be chaotic and a ride and holy fuck!!! Its is fucking ubelievable how quickly and unxpectadly can things get fucked up… but let me begin from the start
Few weeks ago. Got into an agrument with friend. Ignored him for a bit. Who was at fault. Eh 50/50 probably. Anyways. Have another friend. My best irl friend probably. Havent talked in like two weeks but we are ok. I like him. Long story short. Today at exacly 22:36 shit just hit the fan.
I got a message from my friend that i kind of ignored that he knows I was ignoring him (feeling a little bit guilty there not gonna lie) but that he needs to tell me something important about my best friend. My best friends father died today… FUCK. HOLY FUCKING SHIT. We chatted for a bit and then I was left with my thoughts.
Yeah. This is how things get fucked. I mean do I have any questions… Yeah I have a few fucking questions. Like what did my friend do to deserve this? Why did this happend? What the fuck is my friend gonna do? What am I gonna do? What the fuck am I gonna tell him? Can I make things better? Am I a bad guy for ignoring my other friend? Should I have been a better friend to all? That would not change much but it would be of help because I dont know what the hell am I suppose to do?!
I know I am used to giving support here on the wall but this is different. I am angry. Sad numb… Mostly just numb. My friend is probably having the worst day of his life and… What the fuck? It feels like a really really bad joke that isnt fucking funny. IT IS NOT FUCKING FUNNY! It is just absurd. Just absurd. I dont know what to do or how to feel. I havent read any manual of “What do do when your best friend father dies.” I dont know what to do or how to feel. Life… fuck you life. Here is a FUCK YOU LIFE for my friend. he did not deserve this…