So I less than a week I’m starting at a new school. I was a huge move from Houston to San Diego. I have so much anxiety that no one will like me and that I will have no friends. Leaving them behind was very difficult which brought on my depression. I’m also afraid that everyone will think I’m not pretty. Growing up I thought so badly of myself. I was thought I was ugly because that’s what the it kids am said. When they started say in those things is when I started self harming and trying to overdose. Pro would also tell me that I needed to go slit wrist and die that it would be better and they wouldn’t have to look at me. After being told that I tried but failed. I was put in therapy which did help any. Soon after I tried to kill myself to the third time in a year I was put into a mental hospital for 3 months and was constantly being watch. When I got to go home the people at school called me an attention seeker. Said I only did it so that people would notice me. That’s why I had self confidence issues. Because I was scared that people would say something when I was in town or at school or that my family would see the things I done when I was released from the hospital. So I’m really scared that the same thing will happen here at my new school.
I’m sorry that your past experience has been awful. No one should have to go through that kind of pain. I’m glad to hear you made it through it! Going through such a tough time only makes one stronger. And as far as starting this new chapter in your life: that’s exactly what it is. There’s no knowing what will happen in this new phase of your life, and you have the chance to take control of yourself and how you live it. Life isn’t about trying to please other people, it’s about living YOUR life to the fullest, and learning to be confident in yourself isn’t easy, but worth it.
New places are always scary because you don’t know what to expect, but on the other hand a new place means anything is possible. Keep your head up and be true to yourself. You can do it.
Thank you so much @Hamsamurai you have no idea how much that just helped me
I’m glad I could help! I hope today is a better day
Have faith. There are good people in this world, and you never know, you might find a friend at this new school. Try not to let your lack of self confidence show. Don’t let them wear you down, friend. Keep your claws sharp, and know that we are here, we love you, and I don’t give a damn what anyone else says, they don’t know you. They lie about you until they don’t ever know about truth. There’s nothing wrong with you, those people just don’t get and they don’t like what you are. Your heart burns, know that we believe in you.
“When people hurt you over and over, think of the as sandpaper. They may scratch and hurt you a bit in the end you end up polished and they end up useless.” - Andy Biersack