I am currently struggling with an anxiety disorder. I was on medical stress leave from my job because of it for months and have been back for a short while now, part time. I thought I was doing ok but as I get back to a more normal work load, every day overwhelms me. I don’t feel like I know what I’m doing,I am having panic attacks, and can’t focus. I feel like my brain has betrayed me to my emotions and I don’t know what to do. Since my fundamental job requires me to use my brain, a lot, I’m afraid I’m going to get fired, which just makes me panic more.
This probably seems minor compared to others’ issues but I have worked my whole life to make a good living and every day it feels like I’m grasping at fewer and fewer threads of my life. Who am I if I can’t be an intellectual, skilled worker? What else do I have to offer?