Thank you so much to EsRivs and to you, @SheetMetalHead for the response. I was not expecting this at all, thank you again.
I give a lot of context on my life here →
I hope you could take a moment to have a look for better understanding, again thank you and I appreciate the being noticed in the first place. Heart support has been a really helpful place when I’m at my worst.
To try to add some context other than from this link, I only have my mother, older brother, and his fiance. My mother can no longer work from body pain issues over the years and my brother and his fiance work. You hit the nail on the head about my boyfriend being the one that pays rent.
My brother is basically the “leader” of the house, and me and my boyfriend rely on him for us getting a license and me getting an ID. I haven’t got the ID in two years, and now I’m trying to get it secretly on my own. My boyfriend has yet to get a license thanks to the car always having a new issue while my brother is also “building” his own car.
To top it off, he helped my boyfriend get the job he has now, dunkin donuts, where both my brother and his fiance also work. My brother is exactly what you’d expect from the term “narcissist”, as mentioned from my previous post and manages to be the “boss” becaus the boss is too passive, so he makes a lot of moves there. My bf used to only work there, and then took little shifts after leaving the job.
Now that he’s out of his main job, he has no choice but to go back to dunkin. The shitty part is that he found a new job that he would most likely get thanks to his best friend working there, and the moment we drive out of there, my brother calls to drag him back to that job. We feel like children, it really sucks.
My boyfriend is starting to feel like I did, stuck at home, except he’s stuck at that job where my brother makes all the rules like he does at home. And the crappy part is we’ll have less money for ourselves working for that one single job, compared to before. We’re sick of it.
Apologies for the ramble. I don’t like to seem like I “expect” someone to help me but I thought I would make clarification so that maybe I could be understood more.
What both you, @SheetMetalHead and EsRivs said is everything that has been on both me and my boyfriend’s mind, we want to go so bad, but we’re stuck and don’t know how to go by this, and afraid of the toxic consequences.
If by some miracle we leave, this year (that is just me looking into the clouds), I would be more than happy to let you know! But as of right now, we are so so stuck. Thank you again for you both trying to send over some support, I atleast don’t feel crazy for wanting to leave! That is a plus, atleast. Haha. EsRivs was right about me being positive in a sense :’)