Hey everyone, i don’t if anyone among you recognises me or not but I was active few months ago then I left this place,i don’t why but I did anyways.so things are quite messed again I don’t why but it seems to hard to cope up these alone.i have anxiety, derealization, quite depressed and a lot more.i feel like I don’t have much time left and this thing isn’t Letting me live peacefully whatever I have left. My sleep cycle is not going good, even if I sleep I have nightmares and whenever my sleep breaks I feel a lot of panicked. I have taken appointment with another doc but I have to wait till 31st March .i don’t know how much I can hold on more or if things are going to get slightly better till then this a very rough journey.
My last appointments with several docs didn’t yield much so I’m in quite despair now if anything is ever going to work for me. I miss the old me ,I have lost a lot now at such a young age sadly.
hi Junaid,
I remember you! It’s good to see you again. I’m sorry to hear that things are really hard right now.
Having a doctor’s appointment is a good step! Do you have family and friends that you can stay with until then to keep you company, keep you distracted?
I’m so glad you reached out again and are back here. You were missed. It sounds like things are really difficult but it’s good that you have reached out and made an appointment with a new doctor. I know the appointment is a week away and that can feel like a long time, but hold in there. Please keep in touch here and let us know how you are doing over this week.
hey @Junaid ,
I know that this might not really help a lot, but I’m really sorry to hear that you are struggling with your depression again. It can be really demotivating to have to deal with this. I just wanted to respond to you to let you know that you’re not alone in this. I’ve been struggling with this a lot too lately and if you look around on the wall you can find many other people who have similar experiences like you do. So I can tell you that you’re not alone in this. There is hope! You’re telling us that you’re going to a doctor to get help and I think that is a huge step. You’re trying to heal from all of this and I think that’s a great thing. Hang in there and don’t be scared to share, because we’re here to listen to you and cheer you on on your journey of healing.
Hold Fast 
From: basicmitch818
Hey friend, I’m sorry you are feeling so down. I have to say, I’m incredibly proud of you for making that doctor’s appointment! I know how hard it is to take the steps to get better when you are feeling low, but you haven’t given up! You have gone through more than anyone will ever know and you are still here. Everything you’ve ever been through you have conquered. Now we just gotta wait one more week for that appointment and things will get better.
Make sure in that appointment to push that you need help. I recommend asking for a referral to a psychiatrist. They are the ones who specialize in mental health diagnosis and treatment. Also, therapy has done wonders for me.
I know it’s a lot and it may be intimidating but you got this. Remember, you are strong, and you have a team of people here that have your back.
From: Micro
Hey Junaid,
It’s good to see you. Thank you for taking the time to share some life updates with this community. My heart goes out to you, really. Anxiety and depression have been ruining my life for so long. When I feel more affected by it, I can’t help looking at my life as a whole and wondering who I could have been without these conditions. Would I be so much more confident? Would I reach dreams I couldn’t even engage in with my depression? Acceptance of our situation, without versing into hopelessness, is such a huge part of healing too. I hear you when you say that you feel in despair and think about all the time lost already. Your heart is grieving, friend. It is grieving parts of you that you wished existed but didn’t yet. That doesn’t mean it’s going to be like this forever. And that doesn’t mean that you are less today that who you could have been. It is really just a different trajectory. Giving yourself grace, acknowledging your wins and being patient with yourself is so important through all of this.
I am so proud of you for not giving up on yourself and still seek help with doctors. I hope you will give us some updates after your appointment. Just to share some first impressions maybe? 
Between now and then, do you have any projects to take care of yourself? When we feel lower and more depressed than our “usual” daily life, it’s good to reinforce even more the amount of self-care we implement into our life! It doesn’t have to be fancy or exhausting. A day in your sofa set intentionally, watching your favs TV shows and eating something good is definitely okay. Treat yourself my friend. You deserve it so much. We are here for you. We are standing with you. Anxiety, depression, derealization - these struggles won’t ever take the best of you. You will find yourself through it all, more and more, and rise so beautifully. I believe in you.
From: Dark Weeb 666 (Matt)
Hi @Junaid. Its nice to see you again even though I would liked it to be under happier circumstances. I am sorry that you have to deal with this. Depression is hard and it can feel devastating and hopeless. There is hope though. I know it feels hopeless but it is far from it. Things can get better and you are actively going forward and trying to make them better. You are very strong Junaid for doing so. The appoinment is a week away. I know a week can feel like a year with depression but you can do it. I believe inyou. You have come so far you can do one more week. We are here for you ok. Wheneever you need support we are here. I hope things will get better for you soon.
Yes ,I do have people that are always taking care of me. You know it always feels good to see some familiar ones around
It feels a long journey to wait in such conditions but there is nothing much I can do about it. Hopefully things will get better soon
This is not the first time I’m dealing with this all, but let’s hope this will also come to an end .it is scary at times but I shouldn’t be giving up because there is a lot a wanna do in my life…thanks
Hey good to see you again, but these times are scary enough but let’s hope I keep fighting for myself and for those who care and love me. I will surely keep you updated., thanks
Not everything goes according our wishes we must bent down at times and accept whatever is coming towards us and face it. this hopelessness is not going to last forever hopefully, thanks
Hey, I know it’s not the first time you’re dealing with it and there is a chance it will also not be the last time, but a friend of mine reminded me of the fact that there are a lot of small things we can still be grateful for even when we’re going through these dark parts. There still are moments that we can smile, and there are still the daily victories we can celebrate! I’m glad to see that there is a lot that you want to do in your life. It gives hope on those day that it’s hard but still doable. For what it’s worth, I believe that we both can have better days and do the things we enjoy
There are lot of things I want to accomplish for myself and my loved and many more things.there is always a ray of hope even in drak times and I am looking towards it , hopefully this all will pass and time of tranquility will come for us .thanks…
There are lot of things I want to accomplish for myself and my loved and many more things.there is always a ray of hope even in drak times and I am looking towards it
Have you ever took the time to list those things somewhere? Like a written list that you can actually come back to and read a bit of it when you feel like giving up? I have done that myself in the past, and it’s been quite a precious tool when I was feeling hopeless or overwhelmed by dark thoughts, as it gets hard to find clarity and think about what we’re fighting for during these moments. A list can do the job for you as you’d only need to grab it and look at at it during times of doubts or pain. <3
Sending love your way and thinking of you today. 
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