Hi guys, I haven’t been on here in a while. I’m gonna try really hard to keep updating on here and reply and encourage people, I just felt like I needed to leave for a little while to get my thoughts together and figure things out, if that makes sense.
I’ve been doing pretty well for the past couple weeks. I’ll have moments of doubt and sadness, but for the most part, I’ve been fairly alright. For whatever reason though, tonight I feel down. For a couple weeks now, I’ve had urges to get back in touch with people from my past and try to reach out and talk to them. Thankfully, I’ve been able to stop myself, but it’s still scary to me to think that it’s that easy to go back to such a dark place, to people who treated me so awfully. I don’t really know a way how to stop myself from these urges, but I’m trying my best.
I’ve been trying to get in touch with religion and pray, and it’s going pretty well, but I still am having trouble with some aspects of it. I still don’t understand some of the stories, meanings of them, and what they’re trying to say. I’m trying to find a church that would be a helpful tool in my life, but I haven’t been able to find a church that fits me yet. I’m scared that I won’t find a church that I fit into and that I like and it really does worry me.
I’m trying very hard to keep in good contact with my family back home while I’m at college, but sometimes it can be hard. I find myself having a short temper with my mom when I FaceTime her or call her, and I dont know why. I feel like I should take a little break from talking to them, but at the same time, I want to keep as much contact as possible. My family is currently prepping for a hurricane, and they’ve had me worried sick for the past two days. I just want them to be safe, and theres nothing I can do about it, or be there with them, which makes the situation suck even more.