I do not even know where to start…
This is the worse break up I have ever had and it is literarry tortuing me. My bipolar disorder is worsened (It actually was one of the reasons why this break up happened). I have to live togeather with my ex girlfriend in the same apartment (I am gay) and I just can not force myself to stop feeling anything against her.
Sometimes I feel like I would be in myown personal hell and my jelously has skyrocketed and I just do not know what to do. Even the thought that She is looking for someone else makes me crazy.Even if I have no rights to.
And we broke up because we both could not tolerate each others fast tempers. But somewhere deep down I still love her and just can not let her go.I just can not stop loving her. Even if I admitt that I acted like a brat and not long after break up started to date other people and act irresponsible just not to think about her (Otherwise I was crying 24/7).
I am deffinetly going to see a specialist, because it is really bad. I just want to read other people suggestions and experiences how to stop feeling anything against ex partner and how not to be jelous to her. And stop doing reckless things witch result only result bad for me.