I’m 21 and in college. I missed my classes again today. I have tons of late work due and I got overwhelmed trying to finish it all last night. My teacher has been letting me work on it but is starting to push me into turning it in. I have another BS answer why I didn’t come in today. She probably knows it’s BS.
My therapist of nearly two years texted me two months ago just saying “I won’t be able to see you anymore because you moved” and that was that. I only moved 10 minutes away. She used to take me to the animal shelter and cafes on weekends. I almost thought we were friends. She hasn’t texted me since to check up on me. It hurts so much.
I feel SO worthless. Every semester I get behind on my assignments, how could I ever have a career? At my college I tried to reach out to the therapist there and she got crappy with me over email because our times to meet up didn’t match. She hasn’t emailed me back in over a week.
I can’t do this anymore. My drug addict brother stole a bunch of my clothes last week. My grandma basically admitted to not caring about me. My mom never talks to me and only cares about Facebook and YouTube. I’m 21 and don’t even have a drivers license to get away.
I just cant handle it anymore. I have no one to talk to. I try to reach out and get nothing in return. This is the first time I’m genuinely considering suicide. I’m such a failure. No one cares for me. I’m untalented and lazy. Why am I even here? I can’t even muster the motivation to complete simple school assignments. I hate myself so much. So freaking much. I’m so empty.