Currently I feel stuck in being tired.
It doesn’t help my sister has been watching a baby and a toddler for the weekend and I have had to help. Right now I’m just so tired.
I took a nap yesterday; I’m trying to get my sleep schedule back on track but it’s hard when all my friends are active at night. I think another part is just not liking being stuck with my parents all weekend. Idk it’s just annoying.
Another thing weighing on me is last night my family met my sisters boyfriend, he was cool. But recently I’ve been flirting with a guy and I asked if he wanted to go on a date and he said yes and I’m just scared.
What if I butt out? What if he butts out? What if it just doesn’t work out? What if like I die- idk my brain goes from 0 to 100 very fast. My anxiety with people has always held me back which is why I’ve never dated anyone and I’m 19- I get some people go longer than that but yeah. I’m just basing this off of my sister- like she started dating at 16 so I guess that’s just why I feel behind.
I’m not wanting to date just because I feel “behind” I just met a guy and we started talking and I like him. I’m not into all the mushy gushy stuff like my sister is, which is why I haven’t told my parents yet.
Still no job. Still struggling. Still tired. Still depressed and anxious.
I’m so freaking tired.