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Daily Battle with Depression and Anxiety


#1

Hey everyone! This is my first post here. I have been dealing with depression and anxiety for a long time. I attempted suicide on September 10, 2014. Luckily I was unsuccessful. For some reason, I wrote something a few hours ago about my daily battle with depression and anxiety. I have never written anything ever before. I would like to share it with anyone who is interested. Maybe it will help other people. I don’t know. Please let me know if anyone would be interested in reading it and how I can post it here. Thanks guys and keep fighting! You are worth it!


#2

Hi friend! I’m glad you decided to post and share! You definitely should share your story if you want to! :heart:️ I’m glad that you are still here with us today.


#3

Hey Jarnett,

I just want to say thank you so much for reaching out on the forums. I want you to know that you are loved, and valued, and that your life and story really do matter. I just wanted you to know that you reaching out has been an encouragement to me, as I too struggle with depression and anxiety daily, and it really makes me feel not alone.

I’m so glad that you are still here today to share your story. I would love to hear more about your story. If you feel comfortable feel free to make another post with your story, and I would love to read and respond to it. Your story matters and your life matters! You are loved my friend, don’t ever forget that!

Hold Fast, You’re Worth It,
Monkey


#4

This is part 1 of my daily routine. Please read and let me know if you guys go through the same thing.

It’s 9:00 pm on any random Tuesday night, the kids are asleep, and the day is over. It’s time to relax and do the things that you want to do. In my case, I like to play guitar, watch TV, play video games, and hang out with my wife. Except no, I can’t do that. Why? Because I am mentally and physically exhausted. My daily chore has worn me out. No, my chore is not my job or my family. My chore is making sure I keep my depression and anxiety in check so that I can be the person that everyone needs me to be.

My job requires me to be friendly and attentive every day. No problem. I can do that. I must maintain my focus, so I don’t mess something up that could make the company or myself look bad. They don’t put that pressure on me. I put that pressure on myself. My depression expects me to screw something up. My anxiety makes me think that I already screwed something up, even though I didn’t, and someone is going to find out about it. For at least 8 hours a day, this is what happens. It’s an exhausting every day battle and I struggle getting out of bed and putting my “armor” on to fight it. But I do it. I win the first conflict by just getting up and going to work. I must win this one. If I lose this first conflict, this day’s battle is lost. Remember, this has nothing to do with the job itself. It’s all in my head. Thanks depression!


#5

Sending love your way friend. I’m proud of you. You are absolutely amazing