Depresssed about trauma I’ve experienced in life, & today an incident occurred that ended up resulting in police report (I believe in Restorative Justice, but will contact police if feel should & advocate for Restorative Justice & understand ultimately up to a judge, but was getting conflicted about the report, but person taking report said needed to decide or would go ahead and send in report & I think maybe should be reported, but just worry about if what’s best will occur & don’t want to have to go to court (maybe could share I have mental health issues & do virtual or something)), I am also stressed because of all that I will have to deal with, I’m tired, and have suffered so much, I’m struggling with being homeless & need mental health treatment (I have multiple diagnoses & one that is quite dibilitating is OCD, people usually aren’t understanding & are judgmental/ignorant/discriminatory/abusive/bullies) & need to figure out past crimes I could report to police / get restraining orders (if file, want to figure out if will file in current city or other city if possible, don’t want anyone to think I live where file for fear of being found) & I did report to shesacrowd (crowdsurfing anonymous reporting site) for some things so far, but may not be enough. Could try to figure out how to do Restorative Justice, may like I said report to police and/or get restraining orders (could request individuals getting mental health treatment, counseling, etc.), One person at least, I think will report to police because I think I have to in order for there to be a search warrant for something. I’m also wanting to figure out how to see some relatives eventually that I miss … There’s so much to do, I fear for my safety from previous situation I was in mostly from relatives who were abusive & I’m overwhelmed I guess & tired of suffering, but could try to plan to help myself …
You’ve certainly been going through so much. It must be overwhelming and scary dealing with reporting and not being certain of the outcomes. And being fearful for your own safety. It sounds like you’ve got plans and steps you’re working towards, are you safe at the moment?
Do You have an idea of where you’d like to start? Can we helo you form an action plan?
It sounds like you have been through a lot and to now have new trauma added to what you have already been through seems like it could feel a bit overwhelming. Now wonder you are questioning how to deal with all of this and unsure about what you would have to do based on your decision of reporting and how. When our past experiences are traumatic, it can really impact how we make decisions and what risks we want to take. That sounds like a lot to navigate through my friend. That you are doing this while homeless is a concern. Are you currently feeling safe?
How can we support and help you through the process of trying to make a plan to help yourself? We are listening and will hear you and support you. You matter.
I’m struggling, another triggering incident occured today, & I feel like I can’t get a break. My suicidal/self harm thoughts have increased today after that.
I am so sorry to hear that you had another incident. Have you found a place to stay?
Yes, but still struggling mentally…
@Monarch.Nightmare - It’s good that you have a place to stay. Is it safe? And does this place have access to mental health services? Often times, if you can check in with a shelter, they will have the ability to help you get the mental health help you need. You are loved.
I’ve faced discrimination towards my main disability at current shelter. It’s a better shelter than 1st one I ever been to, but they could definitely do better in certain areas. I am probably going to another shelter that I stayed at after 1st but before here for overnight, but going to probably go there for the shelter program where it’s not only overnight, it seems it may be better for me for certain reasons & hopefully I don’t face discrimination - plan to maybe send director a link talking about American Disability Act before going and/or when I get there make sure shelter aware of their legal responsibilities relating to accommodating disabilities.