I’ve had depression for many years now. It’s been really bad these past couple months and I’ve found myself starting to isolate from myself. I’ve tried going on medication but the doctor won’t call me back and I find it hard for me to make phone calls and pester them about it. I really don’t know what to do or how to handle all of this without relapsing to self harm, I’ve been 3 years clean now.
Dear @Br0315,
Depression does indeed suck, I, like many others, have been there, and we want you to know that it is possible to get through this. I urge you to contact your doctor. It may be difficult, but it will be beneficial in the long run.
Don’t hesitate to reach out to other users on HS. We’re a tight knit community, and we want nothing more than to help one another. Stay strong, you’ll be alright 
Hi @Br0315 !
I am glad that you reach out here, and thanks for sharing.
Phone calls can be tough at times. But as @Danny said, it will help you. Don’t think you pester them, since they became doctors in the first place to help others.
Three years, that tells me you have good control! So hang in there and get through this, I know you can!
All love and support to you
I’m sorry you’re struggling. I know it’s hard when you feel along with your depression. But you’re not. This whole community is behind you. Have you heard of Dwarf Planet? I would highly recommend you look into that a little.
Hold fast
Kayla
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Dear @Br0315,
Depression does suck, indeed and it is an ilness that should be treated with the same attention we give to physical illness. The worst thing about it is not only that it affects you, but also the people that care about you so much.
I am really proud that you sought out medication and you should not abandon that . If it is hard for you to reach for medical help, ask anyone close, a family member, friend, colleague to call for you- there is absolutely no shame in that. If you had a broken foot, you would ask a friend to reach out for the cupoboard for you, right? You have to do the same for your medication, this is nothing to post pone or not take seriously.
Please know that you matter and in times when you don’t feel like it, remember that you do for people that are just as hurt by your struggles as you are. Reach out to them and to us here, as well.
Stay strong.
All love,
Soda
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Hey @Br0315,
Thank you for reaching out! I agree that depression can be a tricky demon to tackle, but with the right tools, you can definitely learn how to get a good grasp on it. I’m proud of you for seeking professional help, and I encourage you to continue to pester your doctor - it’s their job to treat people, and if he/she isn’t doing their job, then I’d recommend finding someone who cares more for you (sometimes it can take a while to find the right person to “click” with, but it’s definitely worth it). I’d also suggest pairing your psychiatrist with a licensed psychologist/counselor. Talking out your feelings with someone who is trained to listen helps a LOT.
I hope this helped! Please keep us updated.
-Eric
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