I really just want to die right now.
I left an essay that I am rushing to do at 9:33 pm and I’m in the middle of a mental breakdown mixed with an anxiety attack.
I think about everything. Every little thing.
Anxiety really REALLY freaking sucks and I can’t take it anymore.
I feel dead, I feel defeated.
Right now I can just think of that person who didn’t reply to me and I just think did I make them mad? Am I just a shit person? What did I do wrong???
But it’s just overthinking and it is killing me.
I feel so freaking weak and so stupid and I just feel alone.
I reach out too much and my problems are just stupid and honestly no one freaking cares.
I don’t care anymore. I just want to cry and all of these thoughts just make me want to cut myself honestly. It’s all I can think of right now.
I wish mental health days were a thing but of course they aren’t.
I know I have to keep fighting I KNOW BUT IT’S GETTING REALLY FREAKING HARD.
I feel SO FREAKING ALONE AND I Shouldn’t FEEL THAT WAY. I just feel so fucking stupid.
I just want to freaking die.