In class, I couldn’t understand the math that everyone else seemed to be getting and I felt like I didn’t belong in that class
I felt like this all through my academic life. Even through college. I had to try 5 times hard than everyone else in order to understand what was going on. I had to step out of my comfort zone and ask how some things worked. There are resources that can help you. I want you tomorrow to ask for those things. Talk to your teacher be vocal about it. You got this friend. You are not alone.
Ah man that really blows…to feel like everyone else gets something that you just don’t get…it can be the absolute worst…it’s like – what’s wrong with me?? Why am I the only stupid one here?? Why do I have to be the only person that doesn’t understand??
I feel a similar way in my recovery…I’ve been in recovery for my addiction to porn for 8 years, and in that time, I’ve seen so many people find freedom from their struggles, that I’m sitting back and asking – what’s wrong with me? Why is it that I can’t find freedom when others can? It feels like I’m the only person who’s too stupid to get it…
I don’t have a really solid answer as to “why” I am not “getting it”, but I do know that with my counselor I’m learning to accept myself and love myself where I am. Truly at the bottom of “not getting it” is this fear that I’m somehow different from everyone else, and that would make me unworthy to be loved…that I’m just too broken for anyone to accept me. And when I realize that acceptance and love are the things I’m really driving at, really afraid of, I am learning to develop self-acceptance and self-love, and that really is changing the way I feel and see and look at myself, and it’s making a huge difference.
I want you to know that whether or not you get the math or you are the best or the only person who isn’t good at whatever…you are worthy of love and acceptance. Same as me!
Glad we’re not alone in this.
I can relate to this very much because math was my WORST subject in school. No matter how much I tried or how much help i got, I just couldn’t get a grasp of the material. I wouldn’t worry too much though. Get some tutoring If you can and take some extra time out of your day and do a few problems every night. You may not get it now but if you keep at it, I think you’ll get it eventually. You’ll get this!