I mean, the title kinda says it all.
Before I came here I was plagued with toxic friends and family that all walked out on me… I finally thought that I had found people who would love ma and support me when I became a part of this community, I even had friends from the discord and Twitch streams, but I guess I was wrong.
The “friends” I’ve made in this community have also stopped supporting me, and not given me a single message explaining why.
I don’t really know where to go from here… These people make a promise that they would be there, and then they leave without a word. This 1 safe place I’ve had is becoming just like everything I’m here to try and work through.
All my suicidal thoughts are back. I don’t want to be alive if all I’m good for is being left and abused… I feel like a relapse in my addictions is right around the corner, and I have no one to help me. Maybe I deserve all the abuse I got. Maybe I deserve to die.