I’m Heather and I’m new so please bare with me as I jumble all this out.
Over the past two years has been nothing but pain and endless trauma. My family has split up, I move just about every other month. I’m always sleeping on other people’s couches but pretty soon, I’m not going to have that couch.
I’m 20 and I still don’t drive. I’ve never had money for a car on account of trying to take care of my mom and little sister (my mom doesn’t work). My step-dad has abused me since I was 7 so I avoid him at all costs.
The only good thing is that I was hired today at a dollar store so I have just a shred of hope to start making some money but I’m so tired.
I have no friends at all, no one hangs out with me, there is no one to talk to, and I’m stuck in a toxic situation with the person I am currently living with. Everything would be better off without me because my mom would just have to focus on my sister. I wouldn’t be moving into someone else’s house every month. I wouldn’t have to worry about a job or cars or anything. No one would even miss me.
Now don’t get me wrong, I try to take care of myself. I go to therapy and I take my medications the way I’m supposed to. I’ve been hospitalized twice. It doesn’t matter what I do, it just won’t get any better.
I’m at an end here.