This post is going to be hard to write . I didn’t want to write this because i felt better afterwards but now i’m struggling again with this feeling . Alone. Even though I do know i’m NOT alone , it just feels like i am . It feels like everyone around me is invisible and i’m just here to drown. Do i really have no one? why the hell do i feel so damn alone. I know i have my friends (that i actually talk to ), my family and you guys. But to be honest that doesn’t feel enough for me . The damage already has been done.
For a little back story of what happened to make me feel like this is that November 1st I got out of a relationship with the guy who i was with for 1 year and 1 month because he cheated on me with another girl who he KNEW SHE LIKED HIM. There were even red flags like him eating lunch with her , me not really allowed to be mad at him which is bs.
Anyways , after i broke up i felt like i wanted to rebound to not feel this loneliness and to not feel alone but I finally figured out not a good idea cause i don’t want to make the other person feel like crap because of my actions. I know i need to surround my self with people who love me but who does? who will love me? who will let me know i am NOT alone . I sure do hate this feeling i wish i didn’t have to go through this feeling at all. So my friend has me add someone on social media bc they were looking for single people and so i added him . and when i was showing him pictures of me i just felt ugly and if i were to get in a relationship with him i feel like i wouldn’t be good for him . what should i do?
I just don’t what to do . I know i need to recover but i don’t know if i can from this feeling .
I have been talking to a couple people because i feel like they just hate me or that i did something . I really don’t know what to do . I’m probably just going to stay like this because this is the only thing i’m good at . I apologize if this doesn’t make any sense but i just don’t know what else to say beside that , i really feel alone.
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