One of my closest friends and I made plans months ago to spend New Year’s Eve together, but apparently now he promised someone else to go away with them.
I feel betrayed and forgotten. I feel confirmed that I’m just not worth somebody’s time and company.
I was planing this sort of big party for all our friends, and now their idea is to rent a cabin and be away for a couple of days.
December is so hard for me, but the only thing I look forward to is the changing of the year, and this year I wanted to throw this cool party to actually do what I’ve been wanting to do for years, and I finally have a stable group of friends that I love and now this will be taken from me.
I know, it’s just a stupid day of the year, but I was so looking forward to hosting the people I love.
I don’t know how to tell them how I feel and I just said “cool, you should do that” and now I’m crying in the bathroom because I feel so alone.
I know it’s stupid. I’m writing this here to get it out and I have no one else to vent to. And I don’t want the alternative, keeping it all inside until I explode.