I can’t help but feel like I could’ve done something about what happened with Plur. I won’t get into details with what’s going on, there’s more info on the Discord, but I just can’t help but feel like I could have done something more to help Plur. I know that she’s gone and I cannot change that; but I just remember numerous times where she would reach out and ask if I’d like to hang out or chat, whether it’d be online or IRL. I dont know if anyone else is, but as far as I know I was the closest in promixity to her IRL. I live like 20 minutes away, and I just feel like I could have done something. I didn’t know her as well as others, but I was close enough. If I had known, maybe I could have done something to help her. I just feel useless and disconnected. My job and my desire is to help people, but there’s nothing I could have done about this and it just hurts alot. I’m so sad that she’s gone and I can’t help but wonder if…
Thanks for listening. I know this isn’t about me and I don’t want it to be, but I know it’s wrong to suppress certain feelings and emotions that are negative; it will only harm. Just wanted to express this in a safe place.
Love you, hold fast.