I have debated posting on here for a really long time. I am very scared of sharing how I feel or what I am thinking, but I feel now is the time to talk about what I am feeling in hopes someone can give a helping hand.
I’m trapped in a repeating world. I wake up, go to work, sleep. I am so exhausted everyday and I can’t seem to find enjoyment in anything anymore. I work in a Barbershop, My job is pretty easy and my boss is a very cool person, but I hate my job. I used to love cutting hair, but I am forcing myself to go to work everyday. I feel as if I give nothing to society, and that i’m taking up space. I will never find love and I will be alone. So many feelings rush through my head everyday. That my family and friends are going to die, or that I might end up losing myself.
I feel as if I am already lost, and that i’m holding on to a rope that is close to breaking. I can’t expect anyone to pull me up but I need something to keep me going.