New here and first want to say hello. Ok now for rant or whatever.
Starting off I’ve been feeling miserable lately, the whole not enough time for anything shitty schedule and feel like no way out. Usually ending with feeling better of dead, there is no way I would ever act on that, I’m lucky I have alot of reasons for living and wouldn’t actually want to be gone, but it feels like it would be so much better.
I have recently started a new job on 2nd shift and the hours are draining me, no time to spend with wife and dogs, no time to get the many things I need done at home, no time for myself. I get plenty of sleep but none of it is restful. I cant change shifts with company, I like the work but hate the schedule. I want to find new work for the schedule change in itself. I was working part time for 6 years to help take care of a sick family member who passed and went back to fulltime, the first place I went I found out I was allergic to straw which was used in their product, I held out as long as I could seeing if it would get better but didnt so I left for current job. I’m worried working at one place for a couple monthes and now new place for 3 monthes it will affect my hireabilty having been “jumping around” from jobs. I feel absolutely stuck.
I’m retreating myself from everything, it’s not fair to my wife, I dont want to talk to anyone, do anything, or exist right now. We don’t see each other much and when we do I just retreat inside my head. My personality doesn’t bring me to talking about issues I’m having even with my wife, it’s very hard for me. I found this outlet which makes it easier to speak becuase I’m not facing anyone or know anyone and no one knows me. I’m just hoping for some guidance from someone in similar situations.
Thank you for letting say my peice, I guess back to bed I go.
Last sorry for typos or possible phrase that make no sense, typing from my phone and it never seems to go as planned.