I don’t really feel okay right now. I feel like me and my friend aren’t talking as much. The energy just isn’t the same.
And I don’t want to jump to the conclusion that I’m getting abandoned when I’ve been quite busy in my own life myself. But when we do get to talk, idk it feels different but maybe its because we’re comfortable and there isn’t a need to be over the top. Maybe things have settled.
But this stage is very scary because I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I’m not familiar with it and it gives me a little anxiety
And also the fact that I literally don’t have any other friends is making me feel down.
When she’s gone, I just wait for her to come back. I don’t have anyone else to talk to.
I’m thinking of building my circle but I’m also scared of it not working somehow. Like what if everyone is too busy for me? What if I become boring
I like spending time with myself but at times it feels like I’m by myself TOO MUCH
Also I kinda feel like I’m getting sick right now so I’m really in a bad mood.