Looking at everyone around me, they’re all so beautiful. People at stores, people on TV, people I see daily. I wish I was normal like them.
It doesn’t help that I’m related to someone that’s practically a model
My cousin is beautiful. She’s the popular girl, perfect hair, lips, eyes, you name it. Whenever I’m around her I always feel like I’m not enough, that I if only I was like her, I’d be happy.
Of course, she treats me like the worthless nobody I am. And honestly? I can’t blame her. Standing next to her, I look like the worst person on Earth. She’s the standard selfie-obsessed boy-crazy teen- and if I looked like she does, I’d probably take a ton of pictures, too.
I’m the oddball. The one that seems more immature, ugly, and just altogether, well, worthless. Anyone would pick her over me.
Point is, the way she acts towards me and her generally being better than me makes me so insecure it sometimes gives me panic attacks
I’ve gotten to the point of not wanting to leave my house purely because I hate the thought of forcing people to look at something as disgusting as me. I’ve thought about committing suicide just so that I can stop feeling this way, and stop being a burden on the people I love.