Today, I forgot to take my meds and might having some beers ( not going get drunk). So far today was pretty normal and non drama day. However, I feel inner impulses burning inside my head, not being good enough, or my shadow is intense.
Been feeling very intense anxiety, meeting up people to jam finally. Hoping that it won’t be a shit show, or people will show up. Spend 80 dollars for a space one night.
Really want to turn my solo project into a band. However, I don’t want turn into a control freak and losing my shit, becoming more for an egotistical asshole. But really want this badly.
Only thing that this guy keep asking can we cover this song or that song. To be fair, I try learn fat lip by sum 41 ( actually really fun song to play). Also this guy was to do a MCR I’m not okay. It funny I should talk shit about that band in high school, but I’m having hard doing those cords. Which pissed my ego off more, but I guess grow up sent high school.
Well I’m hope things go well