I’m so glad for you @Ashwell. We say it often around here, but it really is a huge step. The first sessions can be a bit intimidating and confusing, as we often come up with a bunch of things without any real structure AND a lot of reservations, and at the same time we learn to know the therapist (+ they learn to know us ). With time, it gets a little more structured and focused on directions to follow together. Trusting each other is a process that is built over time.
^^^^ This is also a very good sign in terms of just feeling safe and seemingly comfortable.
Well done, friend. I hope you’re proud of yourself for this step forward! Stay open to how things can progress, and keep in mind that even if this therapist happens to not be the right one for you, you will still learn from that experience, and there would still be someone out there who would match more your needs.
One step at a time.
Love you, friend.