I’m in the middle of this big research paper. The assignment was to do it on a topic of injustice that is close to us. So my paper is the sexual misconduct that happens at concerts primary at metal concerts.
I picked this because one I feel like this dosent get addressed enough but also because growing up when I was 10 I was trafficked at metal shows and other events and concerts till I was 13.
The few people that know of this have told me it was my fault for not speaking up. Or thay say it must not have been that bad because I still like to listen to metal music. When in reality when all the terrible things were happening the music and the mosh pits were the one thing that would drowned everything else out and is why I still love the music. I didn’t go to shows for a really long time and only within this last year have I started going to a couple shows with friends here and there.
With all that being said this paper that I’m writing is a lot harder then I expected. It dosent help that Iv been manic, not sleeping and having both emotions of feeling both very confident and extremely insecure all at the same time. All the research has been bringing up a lot of memories I thought I had forgotten about. Iv been losing track of time and come to realize that I spent the last hour and a half desiccating.
It’s to late for me to change my topic and even if I could I feel like this issue needs to be takes about more and by people that have gone through it for there to be a diferencie.
I’m just struggling with the flashbacks and just trying to pray for the strength to get through this and execute it well.
I could really use some prayer because I’m feeling so spiritually attacked by all of this