Today’s a special day for people in US with the celebration of Thanksgiving. Since I’m located in Europe, it’s not something I celebrate as it’s not a tradition at all where I live. However, I do appreciate the idea of taking the time to celebrate who and what we are thankful for, as a reminder of what is instead of what could be.
I’ve been facing a couple of bad news lately that happened to pile up a little bit and makes me feel hopeless. The kind of loneliness and hopelessness that make you feel an uncomfortable sensation in your stomach and dive into dark thoughts without even wanting to. My therapist is going to meet her clients to a different place, which means I’m not going to be able to see her again. My partner has failed at a test/qualification for his job that he really counted on. I’ve received bad news regarding my health, and even though it’s not the first time I tend to be tired of it. The progression of covid in my country and the perspective of heading for another lockdown also hit me more deeply than I thought. Now, it’s hard to realize that we’re heading for Christmas in a month and once again I’m not going to celebrate it with my family because whether I don’t talk to them anymore or they live too far away.
I feel alone. My “in real life” social circle is inexistant. However, I am grateful for so many people.
I’m so very thankful for my partner for still being by my side after 11 years, being caring and just a daily hero for the both of us, especially when my mind becomes an unfriendly place to me. I don’t have enough words to express how grateful I am for him. We’ve been through some very rough spots during the last couple years, but it has also made us grow in different ways. There is still so much to overcome, but I am so proud of him and of what we have become together.
I’m also so thankful for this community and the chosen family I have found here. When I think about it, I don’t know how I would have gone through 2 years of unemployment, burn out, health struggles and lockdowns without it. Actually, I know I wouldn’t be here anymore if not for the absolutely wonderful people I have met here. It has brought me so much and I aspire to continuously and humbly give back what I’ve received here, even if I only manage to give a fragment of it. The care, love and trust that has been given to me is absolutely priceless. I’ve been through ups and downs over and over before, but never have I experienced such an in-depth transformation, maybe not in my practical situation yet, but surely in my heart.
I didn’t know before how it feels to be loved for who I am. I didn’t know that there was something within me that was worth continuing. I didn’t know that my beliefs and values were absolutely fine. I didn’t know that I was able to learn without aiming perfection. I didn’t realize how many emotions, grief and life there was within me.
I’m so thankful for this community, and more than ever I feel the need to say it today. Thank you for being here, for making this place what it is. Every single contribution matters. Every spark of vulnerability is a treasure and a collective strength. Every act of kindness contributes to make this world better. Every presence is highly valuable. Each one of you hold so much beauty and potential just by being yourselves.
If you read this today: thank you for being here. Thank you for thriving. Thank you for not giving up on yourself. Thank you for continuously giving yourself a chance. You are worth so much. You are loved more than words can express.
Let’s keep growing together. 
. Thank you for being here Micro and thank you for all the love and support you keep giving. You have such a big hearth. 