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From yeoledustytrail: This hit me deep… I lost my father unexpectedly on March 1, 2021. A little back story… I’m an only child, parents divorced years back. We grew up in NH, but when the divorce happened, she met a guy from California. Naturally dad stayed here but I went out west to experience new things, as I had a place to go until I got working/apartment. I had incredible guilt then, and even more now. I have since moved back home to take care of the estate, being in this house with so much pain has been very detrimental to all of the grief/guilt and everything associated with it. I was thriving mentally when I went out west, it was a fresh start, but the cost of living was enough after he passed to realize moving back to a place with lower cost of living is smart for our future. One of the hardest parts has been putting on the strong face to my friends, as when I’d try to tell them how I really felt went on deaf ears. So, it’s felt like I lost my father and all my friends I grew up with. Luckily my fiancé has been my rock, I met her out west, she’s so strong but there’s been moments where she can’t help, and it’s nothing against her, I’m just lost. Another side note to all of this, my dad’s health declined over the years and his alcohol habits just escalated it to a point where his body just gave out. Putting all the pieces together since I’ve been back has been a punch in the gut. Luckily for me, I don’t have dependency issues, because… in my eyes it’s easy to just fall on that crutch. To all going through it, I feel you, I will always listen because that’s the human condition. With the state of everything right now, we need to come together… not divide.