Hi Damien! Thank you for reaching out, I’m proud of you for stepping out of your comfort zone and talking about what’s been troubling you.
I’m so sorry you’re dealing with these emotions - breakups are never easy, and I can only imagine how heart breaking it is to lose someone right before a proposal. The way you’re feeling is completely valid. My best advice for you is to embrace what you have right now, and by that I mean live in the moment - do things that you want to do that make you happy, not for someone else, but for you. Whether that be travelling somewhere that you’ve always wanted to go to, doing something that you’ve always to try, working out, learning how to cook etc. Sky’s the limit! Loving yourself and taking care of yourself is something that we often forget to do, but it’s so important.
As far as being single goes, I know this sounds totally cliché, but the right person will come into your life for all the right reasons when you least expect it. When we stop looking for someone is often the time that we end up finding someone because it’s when we least expected it! I promise you the right person is out there for you, it’s just a matter of time until you meet them.
For now though, enjoy the time you have with yourself to work on your own mental well-being and happiness, I wish you all the luck. Much love! <3