The past few months I’ve been on a downward slope of lacking motivation and that I’m disappointing people around me regardless of what I do. I don’t feel like I can be truthful with my parents about stuff going on in my life when I struggle and I don’t have much else for an outlet besides a couple friends depending on the day. I’ve kind of gotten to the numb stage for myself lately where I just try to zone out from things and try to isolate myself from everything, which seems like its all moving too fast.
When I hit that stage, I use it to my advantage. I look around and see what I do have going right for me and how if I change just a couple of the things I’m doing, I can drastically improve certain situations. When you’re hitting that wall, it’s important to check yourself and see what you’re lacking emotionally, physically, etc.
I use my creative outlets of making music and streaming as ways to vent out different forms of frustration I’m going through, and I use the gym as a way to help get out any excess extreme emotions. I turn all of my negative emotions and situations into fuel to better myself in different aspects of my life that I can control, and then I come back to the tougher walls to break through when I’m more mentally/emotionally prepared.
If you’re at that wall, don’t give up. I can’t tell you how much longer you’ll need to push yourself, but I can tell you that if you give up on yourself, you’ll never have the opportunity to be that person that you long so hardly to be.
Love you friends, keep going at it all head on.