Last post did talk about this relationship, how create dark instense violence emotions in me. That honestly get very worry and my shadow is very dense. This friendship have been off and on for about 10 years. I had feeling for her, but it did not work out. However, I don’t know we friends either.
We only text very, very rarely, it like one or two words at the most. She up this week and she just get bailing on me. To fair she did have alot to do and I understand that. But I don’t felt appreciate.
However, I don’t why I can’t leave. I don’t If I’m sucking fucking fool and just brainwash. It gotten to point I feel insane, can’t tell the difference between fact from fiction. Don’t what is true love from a women or just a game. It also reason I have trust issue with females.
But thier was time she was caring ,she tell good things about myself. It was one closing relationship I ever had with a woman, we went to show( even was drama) we talk about personal stories. I did love spending time with her, she made feel alittle Normal . It hurt me that might been a lie.
People tell me to leave, which sucks obviously a logical thing to do, I can be fine without her. But fuck I don’t in someway I can or just insane. I think both are truth, yes she did use me , don’t want to hang with me, and she also did care about me as a friend.