I’m so sorry, that sounds like an awful situation to be in. Often I look for ways to fix a situation, but I can see in your situation you’ve “done the things” that one does in order to not be stuck. You’ve gone to school, you have the job, but here you are, stuck.
My sister is in a similar situation. Honestly, for a split second there, I was thinking it was her writing this until you said a bit more and I realized you weren’t her, but still you’re in a situation that may be a bit more common than one may realize.
I’m not sure if you’re in an area where there’s a lockdown going on, but would you be able to hang out at a coffee shop or library in effort to meet more people. I’m sorry it’s not the best with your mom and sister (and yeah your situation with your dad is so close to my sister’s). Is there a way you could go out to attempt to make friends outside the house? Could you get a second job not necessarily for money but in order to meet more people?
Vina is an app that you could meet people on… and an easy job at a hotel or restaurant could be nice? Have you tried going out walking and such?
You touched on feeling sorry for yourself. I don’t want to be all fluffy, but there are true benefits to being positive and looking into the brighter side of things. You must trust in science some as you’ve mentioned doing therapy. Often therapists can offer solutions but those solutions need to be acted on. When the thoughts of despair and hopelessness come, we have to find the “opposite” or positive outlook on the situation and continue to think on that. I’ve heard of people speaking to plants (it’s on YouTube) and the plants that thrived were the plants that had people speaking kind positive words over them, vs the plants that were being told negative things and getting screamed at. The test was to show that we as people can react the same. It may sound a bit wild but I encourage you to look into it and see what could happen if you speak affirmations and well over yourself for at least a month.
I just like offering solutions that I know have worked well in the past for myself. I’m currently unemployed as of Friday and if I don’t get employed somewhat soon, will likely move back into my parents. I’ll have a similar situation as your own to look forward to if I move back, so I know I would want to be out of the house as much as possible and then doing things to build my own self up such as reading, exercising, create a vision board (to help me focus on ahead and not what’s right in front of me) maybe look into a hobby (I’d also read and pray but that’s not what everyone is about doing and I get that) and the like. It’s a bit different trying to get a job in this climate, so getting one or let alone two jobs may not work out the way I would like to envision, but honestly, there are some without jobs and with car payments and with children, and no savings. I’m just grateful that if the unfortunate comes about, I have my parents to even go to. These are some wild times we’re going through right now. I sincerely think it’s best to focus on what IS good and what IS positive. I tell you I haven’t felt this “positively” about my family for some time…
I really hope your situation changes