I have ADD. I’ve felt weird all my life. I stumbled upon an article about autism in females and havent been able to forget it ever since. I’ve told about this in doctor’s office (second appointment today) but they think I only have strong traits but couldn’t get the diagnosis. From the start I doubted myself all along but now I feel ashamed because I feel like I’m a fraud. My brain tells me I lie. It was the same thing with my attention deficit disorder. For the longest time I convinced myself I made it all up. I feel the same now. On the other hand I really feel like I could be autistic and just be very good at masking. I’ve masked all my life.
I feel like I can’t get my mind at peace because I think about, what if I have it and now can’t get evaluated. Or what if I don’t have it and in wasting doctor’s time and lying to everyone. How do I forget I ever considered having autism?