I think hurt my back while skateboarding, all day just aches I lower part and been really stress me out. For a couple of years I been dealing with back problems and now I don’t what I did. I’m really stress don’t want to out work and not be able to skateboard. I love skateboarding so much and don’t want to let it go( just please don’t leave comment to stop skateboarding, that a trigger for me).
It really love cuase don’t have girl or a lot friends, it give so much meaning in life and I foolish not letting it go, but really don’t want to. Feeling like fucking shit right now and having a anxiety attack. Having suicidal thoughts , I want to punch myself in the fucking skull and just freak the fuck out. I just hate myself now and it over kinda nothing.