This is my 3rd week locked in my room. I tested positive for Covid-19 2 weeks and 2 days ago. I’m usually a VERY active person. I do 2-2:30 hours of CrossFit DAILY, I have 3 jobs, I’m a nutritionist, teacher and CrossFit coach. Currently I’m just able to do the teaching thing, because it’s online.
I’m going crazy over here, I’m starting to think about just sleeping, not eating, and crying in my bed. I try to workout in my room, I try a lot of things, but I’m just crying right now because I can’t control this. I don’t want to infect anyone. But I see EVERYONE who gets sick just going out, right away 14 days of isolating.
My doctor is monitoring my condition and he has just done a test where I still come out positive. I know I can still last for OTHER weeks testing positive for covid-19.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I’m just crying uncontrollably in my bed. I just want to get out. I want my life back.
I feel like the world forgets about me, it’s like I don’t exist. I don’t want to get to the point of being sure that nobody needs me.
Oh, and it feels like my friends and my boyfriend forget about me. Not a video call, a minimum of messages.
But when I do many productive things, when I post everything on instagram, training, healthy meals, walks … everyone wants to talk to me, they want to be with me, now that I’m useless nobody talks to me. I feel very lonely.
Next Wednesday I see my psychologist online, but it feels so far away.