I havent self harm since august 29th 2019, I having issue fighting my impulses and fighting my shadow that huanted me and scares me. Im been trying to study DBT on my own, cant have class that are affordable sadly. I also been watching videos on it and practice the skill from it. In addition, I have also watching videos on the shadows, which gave me insight.
I have lately dealing with bad anxiety and it were I want to self harm, During my day job, I feel it be so good to cut my wrist, just release the anxiety. I have been doing cold water instead and try using cooling methons. But im afarid of relasping and going back to my old ways.
what add more to it, I have been trying talk to this girl, Im trying at least to get a friendship out of it, but I cant control my feelings. Im a hopeless romantic and get attach easy. Im get afaid of being reject, and getting hurt. I keep telling myself I meant to be alone, Im not meant for romance. I cant handle these relationship with women and they can never understand me.