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@ heart support, I’ve wanted to end it so bad but I can’t leave me son. I am so scared that once he is an adult, I will end it all. I don’t want to. But I feel so hopeless, I don’t know how to get to a better place.
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What happened? Why are you in this situation? Sending love from AZ.
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@@somewhereinarizona793 thank you so much for your support. I honestly don’t know how I got to this point. I’m too old to blame my mom and past trauma, I know that. But I can’t get over it. I’m in a very healthy marriage and have a very supportive family but it’s just not enough. Taylor has made me hopeful for the first time in a very long time. But how long will that last?
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Hey! I hear you. It can be so difficult when you can’t seem to shake a terrible feeling of having had something taken away from you at such a young age that it feels impossible to replace even if you’ve been smart enough to surround yourself with love. The love you needed as a child is unique. It’s hard to trust that you actually deserve the good things in your life. I know I’ve struggled with allowing myself to believe that I’m more than what I can provide to others. It’s easy to see yourself as only worth anything as long as you are useful, and that somehow your use will run out and therefore eventually your worth will run out. As a grown man who has a family of his own, I still want my mom to be around. I need her to see my daughter grow up. I need to ask her things that I can definitely google, but it’s so much better hearing it from her. I don’t think we get to be let off the hook once our kids grow up. But also, you’re worth something without that obligation. I know it’s hard to see it or even to believe it that regardless of what you can do for others, you deserve love. You deserve life. And you deserve to be allowed to feel terrible sometimes without having to apologize for it. Thank you for commenting. I hope you know it means a lot to me that I got to hear from you.
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